Eating: Um... life?
Drinking:Dasani water
Wearing: Jeans, black tank top with built in bra, lavender panties, eith a little sleeping kitty on them, my claddagh, green choker and matching earrings, contacts, vestiges of the day's make-up, black belt.
Listening to: *Hummmmrumblerumblerumble* It's my washing machione making contented noises.
Chatting with: Keeping my own counsel.
Thinking: "I need to concentrate on my posture more."
Remembering: Dave's tongue ring.
Glad for: My ability to move past fear into growth.
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Deja vu all time - is relative
I just spent nearly 2 and a half hours rolling on the ground laughing. Then I came home and read pthm's latest entry, which is basically him telling me he hates me. I geuss I should feel hurt and alone. But I don't. I realize that if that is the way he wants to veiw things without really making an effort ot fix them, go fucking ahead. I don't need that type of energy in my life. I know at least a few of you out there are thinking about how selfish I am being. No. You have absolutely no idea. No one can ever really understand the way someone else feels. Having Peter in my life ws just a sort of emotional black hole, no matter how much I gave, it was never enough. So when he directs all of this anger at me, it doens't faze me anymore. I've gone through worse with him, I used to let him bring me down, but I'm beyond that now. I don't need his judgement. If he was hoping to hurt me, which I think at least subconsciously he was, he sorely failed. He has no control over me.
Quote for the Entry: "Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it's better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together." ~Author Unknown
all time - is relative