Eating: Um... life?
Drinking:Dasani water
Wearing: Jeans, black tank top with built in bra, lavender panties, eith a little sleeping kitty on them, my claddagh, green choker and matching earrings, contacts, vestiges of the day's make-up, black belt.
Listening to: *Hummmmrumblerumblerumble* It's my washing machione making contented noises.
Chatting with: Keeping my own counsel.
Thinking: "I need to concentrate on my posture more."
Remembering: Dave's tongue ring.
Glad for: My ability to move past fear into growth.
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*sigh* inevitable... all time - is relative
I had a diffcult night last night. I am mentally unable to have a boyfriend right now. It makes me feel like I am suffocating, drowning, dying. I know this all is caused by Craig, and what he did to me, and I still haven't gotten over how much he hurt me. And so last night I decided to 'take a break' with Ben. I hate doing things like that. It seems like all I am doing anymore is hurting people who love me. But if I stayed in the relationship, I would have just grown to resent and dislike, then hate Ben. I couldn't do that to him. So we are tlaking a break for a little bit.
I am a fantastic revelation last night, lying in bed. Too bad I can't remeber what it was.....
Quote for the Entry: "I can't believe how hard it is to have romance ripped away from me so quickly..." -Ben.
all time - is relative